affirmation ceremony was fun:) haha clarisse was mad. dancing and all that. haha. cute. saw lotsa ppl there. spec and ssc and rike. it was fun :)TERITAN rocked! hahaha.and so did haisong* and farhan :) congrats ppl. oh yeah repellin was great shit man..i wanna doo all of that!! den they showed a flash back of some events, some power point thing. it like made me reminice bout the times i had in ncc. seriously, its like the experiences and the friendships u make in ncc is not to be found anywhere else except ncc. i may seem like i don't really care bout ncc at times. but ncc is where i really lived my sec sch life to the fullest. i love ncc. oh damn i look like i'm promoting ncc but yeah. really great :)
went to cafe cartel with my fellow ncos and saw sgt michelle! haha. oh my. its was funny. clarisse was like being madd.
despite all these. i can't help but feel sad. why does everyone make mee so happy and all that but none of tt really works. i need you. i'm sorry i wasn't there for u. i dunno wad to say to u to make u feel happier or better. everything i say wouldn't make u happier or anything. i'm so at a loss. and my heart hurts. u're probably feeling wad i'm feeling. i'm sorry i hurt u time and time again. i never meant for it to happen. everytime u cry,i have the feeling of someone clenchin my heart. very heart wrenching to see u sad, or hurt or angry.i miss u loads. u probably don't love me as much as u used to but i'm praying hard tt tt's not true. i appreciate all that u've done for me and i really hope we'll just end all of this shit now. i hate this dear.
i <3 you.
broken<3
