today's training. only 3 cadets but 10 ncos? ya. and then i duno lar. i guess i juz have to study harder. if i can't buck up on time i guess nth i do is gonna change anybody's opinion of me. ms zakiah says she doubt i can go to jc or poly. talk about being so supportive. i felt so hurt and all la. then there's my mom. thanks to jayvern for being so sweet and all listening to me. but my fucking maid told my mom about my late nite and she fucking scolded me. she started all the shit again. i dun get it. i already trying to compromise with her and lyk try to come back on time and all. hello. i'm already trying to give in bit by bit. i know being a mother is hard. esp when ur daughter is lyk les. but i think if i were a mother? i would know that my daughter is big enough to know wads right and wrong. i would never control too much. as a daughter, i dont realli let them worry too much except. that les thing. but other then tt i dun realli go and make them worry lyk how late and all cuz no matter what i will also call them and tell them and all. sigh. dunno them lar. i hate my life. its so screwed. i dun wanna live with them anymore.. i realy dont.
